Showing posts with label prose. Show all posts
Showing posts with label prose. Show all posts

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

MUSINGS - NOT PREVIOUSLY PUBLISHED--DIARY ENTRY DATED NOVEMBER 2010

How time flies and after all these years, I found this unsent letter (and others...some left unfinished) with some unsent poems...all to you and for you.


Darling...

Your kisses confound my senses and leave me dizzy and unsure of where I am; they have me breathlessly reaching for you, my harbor.  My eyelids squeeze shut and there's only the blackness of the chasm, the void.  Searching fingers seek purchase in your hair.  If this is a dream, I don't want to awaken.  My lifeline in this turbulent sea of our lusty love is your hand holding mine, our fingers intertwined.

I do not create neologisms...unless ohmygod! counts; but I wonder how many women before me had the same prayer is the throes of heated passion?  Besides your monosyllabic name, ohmygod! is the only other word I cry out as you make me yours.

I loved the look you continually gave me that one evenings as you sat in a chair by the window in our Vegas suite and talked to someone on facebook while I dried my hair after our shower.  Impatient, your sigh spoke volumes and so I set aside my brush and met your gaze with my own. How you made me giggle when you set aside you computer and came to bed demanding satisfaction. Your guttural moan of pleasure moments later also spoke volumes.

Remember when we first began talking and I said I wanted you to bite me...not draw blood.  You argued that nibbles were better.  I countered with animal bites of lust.  Then, that first night I said, "Do you know what I want?"  "No. What?"  "Bite my neck." " Ohhh, I can do that!"  I squealed with passionate joy when you rolled me over, rode me prone to the bed, and, like a wolf, grabbed hold of the side of my neck from the behind me, growled, and...

I am wet just remembering and sharing that memory in my diary. Now I have to go find my toys and wait for you to call.

© Mimi Wolske, November, 2010
All Rights Reserved


Tuesday, February 4, 2014

PROSE: What I Cannot Say Is Locked Away



©  Mimi Wolske, January 2014
All Rights Reserved


The oldest ceremony is the ceremony of locking away the secrets. It is as important this day as it was seven hundred years ago to lock up the fortress and keep outsiders away from secrets. The ceremony can last a nano-second or it may go on as long as the longest night.

The Secret Lady has hidden away things I can't say to you. My thoughts are wild and I wonder if even her key can keep them locked away for long. A key that could be you. I feel it turning in my heart, in the doorway to my soul, in those corners not yet emptied of ideas and words that would make my mother blush.

Kisses that brush the lips and linger for a moment mean more when hearts are distant.

An embrace that causes life's breath to flutter like a butterfly's wings  mean more without you near.

The phone rings louder pleading for an answer amazed at the responses you can arouse even when you are away.

My mind plays games of lips in an endless dance without me when you are silent for even one day.

Distance brings and holds onto memories. Tears of erotic happiness flow from eyes that you call beautiful.

Fantasies would collide if not compartmentalized in dark corners of thought and locked with the key that could be you and that the Secret Lady has hidden.

Until I dare to bring her another lustful thought I can't say to you.


Monday, February 3, 2014

PROSE - POETIC: Sometimes It Feels Like My Toes Are Playing the Piano


 © Mimi Wolske, January 2014
All Rights Reserved

 
Someone once commented you and I are different. You laughed and gave me a wink. I took those words as a threat to our relationship—a challenge from a female who had once been your lover.

I knew then as much as I know now that you didn't love her. Did she know? She was in, at the least of dreams, hopefulness of getting you back...that's what I believed. Did you think the same thing about the way she acted?

About the things she said?

About the words she posted for the world to read?

My heart choked the breath between lungs and its escape when I read her post that she still loved you. I asked you about it. What did it mean?

Why wouldn't you tell her to stop that?

Especially so publicly?

Why?

Oh, puh-lease...I am not paranoid. I can read...all the words and the obvious signs from her. So can everyone else. Why is it important for her words to remain when mine cannot even appear?

Lyrics and poems you write for me...to me...have my name removed when you decide to post them to your blog or social network. Only you and I have the original versions; or so you tell me.

Do you send them to her?

Does her name replace mine?

I don't hang on to past lovers...they're past...unimportant...out-of-sight-out-of-mind. Who does?
Unless they want the person to continue loving them for some reason. What reason?
I can't pretend not to love you.

It's impossible.

I can't conceal my emotions at the bottom of some Canadian lake of under a stone in any city in the U.S where your love squeezes life into me. Not when your arms are like an olive branch—holding onto me as I cry, embracing as we make love, reconciling...

My legs don't know how to run away from you and your love, especially when every breath, every thought, every image I paint and word I write carries another piece of my love for you...to you.

Sometimes it feels like my toes are playing the piano.